I slept like crap again last night. I can’t understand why I am so tired when I am sick and yet I cannot sleep. I also can’t understand the lack of appetite. I didn’t eat anything at all from Tuesday night till Thursday night. I then didn’t eat anything bread until this morning. I got the chicken sandwich last night and then as funny as it may sound I wasn’t hungry for it. I ate it for breakfast this morning. I also ate a slice of pizza for lunch. Don’t tell my dad since when he called to find out what I wanted for dinner he laughed at me for asking for pizza. So I had my mom bring me another chicken sandwich. I didn’t even finish that one. I am just not hungry. I would figure I would be. I am also surprised that not eating for only a few days messes up your digestive track like it does. Enough said about that!
I checked some email from my desk for the first time since this all started. My dad thought it was a good sign I also watched some TV and some movies. I spent less time in bed today. That is good. I spent it lounging in the Pier 1 chair I have. I am so bored. I cleared off the tivo of anything I will probably watch. The rest will just sit there until it gets erased, even if I think I may one day sit and watch that crap. This was that day and I didn’t touch it. I did watch the good movies and some shows I watch done.
I am now back in bed with the powerbook. This time with pillows propping me up. Man this is probably very bad for my back. I do like it to write though! I stopped writing the blog’s right into Kun-Log (the offline blog tool I use for Mac OS-X). I am writing the blog in word and then pasting it into Kun-Log. The position I am in the font’s in Kun-Log are too small. In word I can pump the display up to 500% normal. I do have bad eye sight so it helps. Right now I have it at 300% normal on the PowerBooks 12” display.
It is just after 10PM in NYC and I am bored. I can’t go out. I am tired but sleep won’t come, yet again. I hope I get a normal night sleep tonight. I was told I could take a Nyquil last night but I didn’t. I thought about it. I had one out at 2AM but I didn’t take it. I wanted to get on normal sleeping habits. Well without the drugs I didn’t get onto one yet. Lets hope tonight is different.
When you were a kid did you ever look forward to a sick day, or a snow day? Just a change of pace? I used to. Now that I am older and working I look at things a bit differently. Staying home sick is boring. I have been cooped up since Wednesday. Granted I have been in no condition to do anything, but that is half of it. Now that I am feeling a bit better I want to get out and do SOMETHING, anything. The problem is the medical people who are so helpful when you are sick are also a pain in the ass. My dad is “suggesting” I stay in another day. His suggestion’s are usually do this or you are stupid. I am feeling a bit better today. So I wonder why I can’t do anything tomorrow. The answer is that the body needs time to fix itself. I am listening since I don’t want this to come back again. Twice for me is more than enough. I am so bored I will probably remote in from home. I got permission to do that, but I was told to “take it easy”. I know he means well. I am not off the hook with doctors anyway. My doctor wants to see me, and he wants me to speak to a headache specialist again. I may not have been in contact with my doctor, but since he is friends with my dad he has been in constant contact with him this week. It is nice having people in the family that can do stuff like that.
I don’t mind going to see my doctor. Tony is cool. He is my dad’s doc, and I just hop on the 4 or 5 train by his office and I can be at work no later than like 10:30. The headache guy is another story. I went to him once like 2 years ago. I stopped going since I left one health insurance company and went to another when I started full time work at my current company. At the time they had a bad company that he didn’t take. Now we are on a different plan and he takes it, so I can go see him. The problem is the first time I went he sent me for an CAT scan. Never fun. It was my second “head shot”. I had one when I was like 11. they found nothing. That is good. The headache guy wanted to put me on some heavy duty preventative medication. He told me the side effects of them and I said no way. The compromise was the Nadolol that I am on now. The next time I go see this guy I am taking my dad with me. All of my dad’s medical friends including Tony think this is the best guy around for headache’s. at least if he is going to want to put me on powerful drugs I can have my dad around telling him he is on crack or something.
Ok enough depressing crap. Most people don’t want to read about my medical issues. And the truth be told is this blog is more for me than anyone else. But I don’t want to turn off the 3-5 readers I do have. I am just bored and writing like this is good. I like doing it. I just write what I am thinking about. Right now it is how I want to be better and doing something else, anything else than what I am doing now.
Written while listening to Pink, Just Like A Pill…