Self Fulfilling Prophecies

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I was all set to go to Baltimore & DC this weekend with a bunch of friends. That was until I got up this morning. Well it wasn’t really getting up. My alarm went off, but since I wasn’t able to sleep it doesn’t count as getting up. that was the problem. I haven’t been able to sleep allot recently. As a bit of background information I get migraine headaches. I usually get them from eye strain or lack of sleep. That brings me to this morning and me not sleeping. I got out of bed and I already had a head ache. That happens sometimes, so I decided to go through my normal routine. A shower and something to drink usually can clear my head enough that I am fine. Well today it didn’t. This caused me a dilemma. Do I try to take some medication and hope for the best on a 4 hour car drive away from home, or do I cancel my plans? Waking up feeling like a full blown migraine is about to start does not set the stage for a perfect day. A long car drive and then sitting in the sun at a baseball game also is not the perfect situation for a migraine. I decided to not go on my trip. I was too worried to take the chance, and be that far from home with an impending migraine on my hands.

The scenario I just pictured happened today, but it is also part of one of my worst fears. To be away from home, or not able to stop and rest and handle a full blown migraine is a fear that I live with. Whenever make plans I worry that something like that will happen. Was this time a self fulfilling prophecy? I don’t think so, but it gets me wondering. I have lived through this fear before, so to me it is very real. When given the chance I won’t (and didn’t) take the risk of venturing out when I was not feeling 100%. It pisses me off. It probably pisses my friends off also, but I need to take care of myself.

Instead of venturing off to DC, I crawled back into bed and waited for what felt like (and probably was) hours till sleep came to me. I originally got up around 5:30AM. I crawled back to bed around 6:30. I don’t know when I actually slept. I just remember I got out of bed and got dressed probably around 3PM today. I didn’t venture outside until 4PM or so. I went on some quick errands and headed home. I was tired after that.

Now of course I am wide awake. It feels like my entire sleep schedule is reversed. I can’t sleep at night, but I am so tired during the day. When I called to tell Jayson I was bailing out of the trip he said I should take something to help me sleep. I only do that when I have a cold. I don’t want to get used to or addicted on some sleeping aide. But tonight I might take the plunge and try something. I just want a good night sleep. My dad will attribute the lack of sleep to stress. I tell him, yeah so. I need to find a way to deal with work stress better. It is the only thing that I can think of that is causing this.

On the bright side because of the extra nap I eked out this morning the full migraine I was afraid of never came to pass. Would it have happened if I had gone on the trip? My personal history tells me tha there was a good chance. Am I upset I missed the fun? Of course I am. Will I get shit from everyone from bailing out? Of course. I already got a voice mail from Gus, and 3 SMS messages from people. All I can say is what I said to Dari, “I don’t wish this on anyone”.

I am going to write a bit more, and then I will try sleeping again…

Today + Poker + Scott = $

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Today we had a poker game. Dan had 10 people over and we had a nice round of Texas Hold em. I can’t spell the game (or anything else for that matter), but I can sort of play it. We had a good game. It started early so it finished up early. I started out strong with a few hands, then I got beaten down a bit, especially by Miguel. Then I ended up staying in and coming in 2nd. Not bad out of 10 players. I got a nice chuck of the pot. Miguel played loud, and intense. he took a bunch of my money. Jack took some of his money and dan took both of their money. John never had a decent hand and got blown away. Alyssa and Joseph also got out early on. Heather and Igor fell in the middle. Gus and jack ended up both going out on the same hand and tied for 3rd and it came down to Jack having a better high card in order to take 3rd and make his money back.

It was down to Dan and I for 1st & 2nd place. Everyone thought I had a chance, but dan had more than triple the amount of chips that I had. I got out in like 3-4 hands. I was happy to make a bit of cash and not loosing anything.

I learned allot from tonight’s game. I learned that Joseph, and Heather are new, but decent players. John may or may not be a good player, but luck was not on his side tonight. Jack is good, and conservative. He had some chances to go head to head with some people and he backed down. Other times he got into the mix and came out on top. To me he was the one to watch tonight. Dan was good as always. Gus also is hit or miss. Looks like luck was not on his side tonight, but he still made 4th place.

It was a fun game. It turns out there was some contention regarding this game tonight. Dan could not host more than 10 people. he couldn’t have 2 tables, so 10 was the max he could do. Their was about 20 or so people who wanted to play. he couldn’t even invite friends from out of work like he normally does. Their was so many people who wanted to play at least 2 people got upset about not being invited. One of who I didn’t even know liked to play poker. Honestly I didn’t want her to play either. She probably wouldn’t be quiet during the game. Their were others who ended up getting left out, but didn’t seem to take it badly, or didn’t know that a game was on. That just shows you that you can’t please everyone all the time, and adults can act like children if given the chance. Of course this is from someone who was at the game and never even “officially” asked to play. It was just assumed I would play until Dan asked me on tuesday. I don’t play allot but I am always down for a good fun poker game.

Now I hope my luck lasts until I get back from Vegas. And no I do not plan on playing poker while in Vegas. Sean and I are going to try our luck with Craps…

Server Crash

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Yesterday Jay and I had to deal with a domain controller crash. it is never good when a box crash’s, but it is even worse when it doesn’t come back after a crash. A rather important domain controller (they all are important I guess) totally died yesterday. We ended up spending 3 hours at our lovely (and very cold) data center bringing online a replacement. The good news is we sort of know what we are doing, so we had alternate DC’s online, but we still acted quick to get a replacement server up. I never like running with less DC’s (Windows Domain Controller) than normally. If you loose all of them, no one can log into the servers.

Due to that yesterday was kind of stressful. To users, nothing really was down, but we were busy. Along with the DC being gone we have to re-setup 2 applications that will take a while to get exactly like we had setup before. I just love having more work.

Today was taken up by meetings. I maybe had 1 1/2 hours of no meetings today. Have I mentioned I don’t like meetings? These meetings were actually productive, but I still don’t like meetings.

I should have gone home right away after I heard the Subway flooded. It rained allot last night. I waited while at least 3 subway trains went by totally full. I was dripping with sweat from the heat in the station. By the 4th or so train I just pushed into one, like everyone else. I got luck and room opened up further into the train and I was not too bad off. that is why people do push into trains people. Because it is crowded by the door and opens up a bit further inside the train. Lesson is move into the middle of the train. I ended up even getting a seat halfway through my trip. The down side was it took me almost 3 times as long to get to work as it normally does. That should have been the sign to go home and get back into bed! Speaking of bed. It is time for me to turn in. I got little sleep last night, and I have a poker game tomorrow night that may go late. Sleep is a premium recently!

iPaq Vs. Treo 600

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As I mentioned earlier this week I got a look at the new HP iPaq phone. After playing with AJ’s for a while yesterday I decided that I will wait till the new Treo comes out. The HP is just way to big compared to the Treo 600 I have now. The screen was nice, but size is an issue, and the HP is bigger than my old Treo 270. check out the comparison in size between my Treo and the iPaq.

Stressed Out, Going Away

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I have been really stressed out recently at work. Some friends recently pointed that out to me. I have been feeling run down, but didn’t know that it was showing. Turns out it is. I need a vacation. I think/hope that will make things a bit better. On that note I will be off to Vegas next week for a few days. I am going to hang out with my friend Sean, and his wife Kelly.

Hopefully 1 night at a nice hotel getting the 5 star treatment, and then 3 days of hanging with friends that I don’t get to see too often will calm me down a bit. This trip is made possible by the Delta SkyMiles points I earned at Datastream. Delta ripped me off on the amount of points needed for a ticket since it was a short notice trip. That is the new thing airlines do. But at this point I didn’t care. I still have tons (and I mean tons) of points to use on travel.

The new HP iPaq GSM Phone

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I checked out the new HP iPaq h6315 GSM Pocket PC mobile phone on friday. I was walking by a T-Mobile store and decided to see if the had it. I was able to get a side by side feel from the new iPaq and my Palmone Treo 600. I didn’t get any pictures but my original assessment seems accurate. The iPaq is allot bigger. It is more the size of the old Treo 270, but a bit taller. It is just as wide. That was what made the 270 not comfortable to hold when talking. The screen was big and nice, but I have doubts about the removable keyboard. I will probably wait for the new Treo to come out. Whenever that may be. My luck it will be another 6 months before it is for T-Mobile. Of course since there is no official release date, it is anyone’s guess how long it will be before the new Treo’s hit the stores.

AJ will be getting the new HP iPaq phone this week, so I will check it out in detail later this week. Hopefully I will get a picture of it with my Treo. It will remind me why I won’t spend $600 (I already have T-Mobile service so it will be more than a new activation) on a larger pone.

Day In The Park

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Today I walked around Central Park with Amanda & Rich. We originally went out foraging for food. We found a nice burger place on 86th & Lex that has mini hamburgers. It was good. We then walked to the park. We saw the big lake. We walked on the jogging path. We even hung out near the botanical gardens.

The weather was nice, so it wasn’t so bad being out doors. We hung out in the shade and it was breezy. It was a perfect day. The park is always nice on a weekend (holiday). The garden was cool. I live less than a mile from it, and I had no clue it was there. Amanda is good at finding cool places.

On the walk back to my place we hit the Museum of NYC. We checked out the gift shop. We didn’t see any exhibits. We didn’t want to pay, and we were already tired from walking all over. Also on the way back I saw where the Metro North trains come aboveground on Park Ave. it is cool watching the trains go by.

I am glad I put my sneakers on because my feet would really be hurting right now if I did all that walking in my Doc Martins. We finished off the afternoon by just hanging by my place. Amanda needs to come out and visit again when she has a day to kill. I am going to have her help me decorate my place.

Now the work week begins soon:( I liked my 4 days off. I don’t want to work again.

Scanned My Life Today

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I took this long holiday weekend and did something productive. Well actually I took 3 hours or so of it and scanned a whole bunch of old documents. My office just bought 2 high speed scanners that have document feeders. I plugged on into my laptop and just dropped 40 pages at a time in the feeder and scanned. it even does double sided papers. Jayson gave me the idea a few weeks ago. I finally had time to do allot of my stuff.

I scanned almost all my old bills and statements. I like to do that. I want everything electronic. I scanned a bunch of old report cards and other crap I had left over my parents saved from my pre college days. I even scanned a bunch of really old medical records, letters, and stuff from elementary school. it was kind of cool going through this old stuff. I maybe scanned 500 pieces of paper today. I have a big stack of scanned stuff locked in a drawer at work. If all the documents are backed up I will begin to shred the originals.

Now all I need to do is make a DVD backup everything and the job will be complete. I should begin to do this every few months so I don’t have extra papers lying around. My goal is to have everything electronically stored. It saves space. And is easier to search.

This entry was written while listening to Right Now from the album Live Volume 2 by Van Halen

Online Dating

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So I have been told by several people to try “online dating”. I have setup profile’s on at least two popular dating sites last year, and didn’t do very much with them. At the time I didn’t have to. I got setup with my ex-girlfriend so I didn’t need to go online. Well I said I got setup with ex, I am currently single. I have no more excuses not to go out and find someone. Except the online searching for a girlfriend freaks me out. I know it is totally cool and all, but I just can’t get over how weird I originally thought the concept was. of course I first heard about online dating in the mid 90’s when it was weird. not it is the thing to do.

I checked out Match.com again today. My friend Cynde really pushed me to checking it out. they have really evolved their site. They actually ask some really personal questions, but I assume it helps.

I am going to spend some time cleaning up and updating my online profile. I need to get over my reservations and do it…

The URL Problem Solved, I Think

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So with Typepad I have been having a problem with the old url of this site. I mentioned the issue the other day. Turns out I may have had a partial solution the whole time. My DNS provider Dyndns.org has a url redirector service for free with my Custom DNS package. DYNDNS.org provides dynamic DNS options. it is really cool. I have been using them for just about a year (i just renewed my service this week). You set your domain to use their DNS servers, and you can control your domain from their web interface. That is not anything new. Register.com does that for free. What is cool is if you host your site on a dynamic ip address their service will automatically update the DNS whenever the IP of your box changes. I also had a function where their system stored my email if my mail server went down. They are very helpful for the self hosted person.

Dyndns has a feature called mywebhops. It is now taking the old URL and just redirecting to the new url of this blog. Now if you try to hit the old home page, you will get redirected to the new site. The only thing this wont do is keep all the embedded links that google has spidered. I will just have to wait until google spiders the new site.

I will know if this whole thing works after the DNS changes propagate. Hopefully in a day or sooner.