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How Can He Be A Pisces Too?

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It felt like Friday, even though I worked from home yesterday. I am feeling better this afternoon, but this morning I still felt lousy. Jayson took off at noon on his week long trek to Baton Rouge. I think his timing on the drive was off, but I wasn’t going to argue traffic patters since neither of us drive that much anymore. I wasn’t driving down there, so I was happy. Danny is moving this week so I won’t see him till Wednesday. I feel all alone!

It was Nelson’s birthday today and they did the traditional birthday lunch with him. A bunch of people also went out after work. I went for 1 drink. It was one too many. I knew I shouldn’t drink if I was sick recently, but I was stupid. Thankfully I only had one.

I am just trying to figure out how Nelson and I are both Pisces. I think he is faking it or something. I have made it almost a mission for me to distance myself in every way from him. And Nelson if you are reading this, yes I am kidding! Dan if you are reading this, no I am not kidding.

Busy and Sick

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Got one of the 2 circuits we were going to cancel taken care of. our provider is working on canceling the other line. The new bigger circuit for my office is on order now.

Jayson is working on finishing up the hardware for our VMware GSX server. We had issues with the poweredge we bought so we won’t have 4 gigs of ram. We will settle for 3. That means less VM’s we can run. I need to cofigure GSX when I am in the office Friday.

Jay is off next week to goto sell his house. he is going to fix it up and put it back on the market.

I am working to get hardware for our Biztalk 2004 deployment. I need to buy a server for QA and 2 for production. Working out pricing issues now. Hope to have them by next week.

What Is Up With Me?

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I had to leave work early yesterday because I felt like crap again. I am feeling better today, but still not 100% myself. Not sure what is up but I need to take it easy. Jayson thinks I am overworking. I need a vacation. I am working from home today. But I am actually working so I am not that much more relaxed than I would be at the office. At least I can play music and sit at my computer in my PJ’s.

I hope I am better for tomorrow. I need to goto my sisters. I also am planed to help a friend move on Saturday, but my body (and my dad) are advising against it. I feel bad but I need to call him and discuss the situation with him.

Emailed Jenn again tonight. I have written her more in the past week than I have in the past 2 years. I miss talking to her. I miss talking to steve also, but getting him to talk is much harder than speaking to Jenn! I hope to see both of them soon.

Journal Import Disclaimer

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A friend of mine emailed me about the old journal posts. Instead of replying directly to her I figured I would post several “disclaimers” regarding these old posts. First there is not that many of them. Between 1995 and 2000 maybe about 100 to 150 of them. Some of them were very short. Also they were clustered together. I did allot of writing during the summer of 1995. I had my first Thinkpad and allot of free time at night to write. I also did allot of writing in the late spring and early summer of 1996. I had my afternoons free when I was done with my Anatomy and Physiology Summer school classes. I then skip ahead to december 1999 through the first half of 2000. When you read the 1999 & 2000 posts you will see why I wrote then. I was in training and traveling for a while and I was alone, bored and had free time at the hotel. I then pick up again for a little while for a few days in november 2000. that is it besides one rouge post in 2001.

I will edit some of the posts, but others that probably should be edited (i go off on my parents a little in 96) I will probably just post as is. In an answer to my friend Jennifer’s questions, I don’t bash many people. I manly just said what I did on a given day and some feelings I had. In more recent posts on this blog I give more graphic opinions. And yes Jenn I do mention you in some posts. How can I discuss Oneonta without mentioning you? Well I could but it would be weird.

I hope to (when I have time) go back and fill in details on specific days that I remember things about. I think that would be fun to write about old almost long forgotten stuff from my less than wild and crazy youth. Of course then I may have to mention certain young ladies from the greater Binghamton area’s drinking habits! That is when it does not in any way incriminate other people (namely myself). But fun it will be. And no, as much as my blog posts are an english teachers nightmare I will not let anyone check my spelling or grammar. I found an outlet (blogging and email writing for that matter) where poor grammar and spelling is almost acceptable. don’t ruin it for me!

Never A Good Reason To Visit The CCU

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So I am going to be light hearted about the following post. I am not insensitive, but that is the way I am. I started the day with a wonderful 45 minute commute to work. That would have been ok if I commuted from my old apartment. Since it normally takes me 20 minutes to get to the office I was kind of pissed off. Turns out the trains were all messed up so they were really crowded and slow moving. That adds for lots of fun.

I get to work and get a voice mail from my sister to call her right away. I was sort of busy and didn’t really call her right back. I then get a call from my mom on my cell. Now I know something is wrong. My mom would never call me at work at 10AM. Turns out my dad had some chest pain and was in the ER. Granted he works like 60 seconds from the ER, and spends his mornings there, it wasn’t he was working in the ER. it was he was there with a problem. Turns out he had a blockage in his heart and needed to have a stint put in. Now if you were calling to tell someone about a problem like that you would start the conversation off with just that. This is the issue. Not my mom. She had to explain she was calling me because she called my sister also. That went on for a bit until I learned of the issue. Needless to say I was a bit worried. My dad is not exactly in the best shape. This was the second time in 6 years that he had a blockage that needed stinting. So all the worst case scenarios go through your head. Turns out he is fine, or as fine as someone who just had a plastic thing put in his heart can be.

I am relieved to know he will be fine in the short term, but concerned along with the rest of my family that he is not taking care of himself. Everyone else is either yelled at him, or said they will decide what he can and cannot eat. Everyone doesn’t understand why I wont step in either. My opinion boils down to two pieces of information. You cannot teach an old dog new tricks, and no one can change without wanting to change. If my dad wants to change his diet he has to say he wants to, and make an effort to. You cannot force him to. That brings me to the realization that although he wont die tomorrow, I have allot less time with him than I used to.

I am either in denial about the whole situation or I am handling it rather well. Not sure which one yet. I went up the hospital tonight to see him. That was a bigger feat than I originally thought since the subway was still messed up. The snow and wind didn’t help either. Once I got there he seemed to be in good shape. he sounded fine, and looked ok. I guess we have to wait and see how he handles himself once he gets out.

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Journal Import Update

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It is weird reading over old writings about what was going on in my life. It is also interesting to see the huge gaps between when I wrote. There were months that I wrote almost everyday, and other entire years that I didn’t write anything. I have imported everything I have from 1995 till February 2000. Once I go through everything I think I will actually import it into this main site. The problem is since I never (never in a million years) thought I would publish this stuff for people to read I used last names, and other details that I should filter.

I realized I was depressed when I was working at Datastream. It was the being alone and on the road that I think did it. Being bored towards the end didn’t help either, but I when I read back on the posts I realize I was depressed even when I started working there in training. Of course I wasn’t doing what I signed on to do for the 3 months of training, and that could have been it. I don’t know. it is just weird reading all these old posts. I may decide to go back and fill in some blank spots of time with posts of things I remember.

Morgan’s Birthday Party

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Today was Morgan’s birthday party. She seemed to have fun, and so did her friends. I think the only thing she didn’t like was the cake. My dad and I are going to smuggle her some blackout cake the next time we see her. The white frosting didn’t make her happy! I actually didn’t have to wait long for the subway on the way to Queens today so I made the entire trip in like 40 minutes. That included about 5 minutes of getting lost since the roads in Forrest Hills are not numbered like they should be. The return trip however took allot longer since I ended up having to wait for the 6 train for like 15 minutes.

I watched TV, did some work, and cleaned my apartment a little during the rest of the day.

TV and Not Much More

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I did some work, watched TV, etc. today. I went to the bank to deposit my Tivo rebate that I finally got. I hit Best-buy. I got Angel Season 5 while I was there. I liked that show and never got to see the second half of that season so I am eager to watch it.

Right after I got home jayson called and needed my help because he hurt his back helping danny move. I met him by Petco. We ended up grabbing food at burger heaven. Well I ate and he drank. I also brought him Alien Vs. Preditor. I still have not watched that dvd, but I saw the movie already so I am not in any rush.

I felt bad that I couldn’t help danny today. I was originally going to have electrical work done in the office, but then I got sick. So lifting would be bad for me today.

I also got a card for Morgan. Her birthday gift is already on the way. I still wanted something for her on her party day but I will settle for her just getting the package.

Spoke to Sean today. He is happy (as a father of a 4 day old can be). Little Scott is doing well also. Kelly is resting. Sean had some website questions. I think his idea of a baby site is cool. that is what I did for morgan.

Walk Don’t Run Down Memory Lane

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I started going through some old “journal” entries I wrote years ago. Yes before this blog (and any blog) I wrote a journal online. I kept them in password protected word files. I still have them 10 years later. I decided to take each individual word document and put it in a blog format. It is time consuming but once I am done I will have all my journal entries updated into a blog. Since most of that stuff was not originally written for the internet I will put it on a password protected site. Going over what I wrote it is all PG, but I will leave it on a different site than this one just because of how old it is.

I have already gone through 1995. That seemed like the first year I digitized everything I did. Before that I only kept 2 other journals. One was a high school project and another one was just a scratch pad I wrote on when I went cross country. When I was younger I only thought journals or diary’s were for girls. Going back over what I wrote 10 years ago is weird and interesting. Some stuff I was like wow, I remember that but I hadn’t thought about it in ages.

It will take me a while to update everything into the blog, but I have wanted to do it for a while. It will eventually get done.

Still Lingering

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I had lingering feelings of sickness this week. I left work early Thursday because I felt like crap. I ended up working from home most of the day on Friday. And unlike many of the people I know “working from home” actually means doing some work for me. I ended up going into the office anyway in the late afternoon. I had 2 meetings I needed to keep.

Friday night I took Gretchen & Jayson out for dinner at the Outback. I felt like thanking them for making sure I was not dead last week when I was sick. It is nice to have good friends, who aren’t afraid of being contaminated by you! The Onion is still good, but man it seems like the Outback has raised the prices at their restaurants like 2 times since I moved last year.

I am feeling allot better now. I will take it easy today so I can be all good for Morgan’s birthday party tomorrow.