After some thought I have finally came to my senses. I woke up and realized I am not 18 years old again and in college. I said to myself why in the world am I spending all this time on a volunteer class? I loved being an EMT. And I like the “idea” of being an EMT again. In practice I am killing myself to get to class 3 (sometimes 4) nights a week.
I want to volunteer. But I already have a stressful and time consuming job. Half of me thinks I am copping out. That half of me says if I don’t do this again now, I will never get to do it. The other half of me says I am crazy for wasting that much time outside of work on school. I should have a life, instead of going for something that I did 10 years ago. I may be over analyzing everything, but taking or not taking the course is a big decision. I don’t care about the money for the class. If I didn’t spend it on the class I would have blown it on something. I am more concerned about the time I wasted, or time I will waste taking the rest of the course.
My dad thought I was crazy. he said he didn’t even know why I was taking it in the first place. He thought (as I do somewhat) I have a busy enough job, and I should just relax when I don’t have to work. Now my dad is lazy so maybe I shouldn’t listen to his opinion, but he echo’s what I am thinking. Jayson and Cari also seemed to think I was making the right decision. Not sure if they were just agreeing with me to make me feel better, but the decision is final. I already missed class tonight. That would make 2 I missed. I could only miss 4 before I got booted. The class is not worth that much emotional strain till January. I am used to going to college and taking a class for 2 nights a week. This is allot more. To me work is allot more important to me right now. They keep giving me paychecks. And it is not like I am bored at work. I have more than enough to do to keep me busy.
Just to note I was doing excellent in the class. I had one of the 2 highest grades in the class. That may have been part of the problem. I didn’t crack the book at all, and I was so bored from the class. Maybe when I am not so crazy I can try this again? But deep down I know that