It is weird reading over old writings about what was going on in my life. It is also interesting to see the huge gaps between when I wrote. There were months that I wrote almost everyday, and other entire years that I didn’t write anything. I have imported everything I have from 1995 till February 2000. Once I go through everything I think I will actually import it into this main site. The problem is since I never (never in a million years) thought I would publish this stuff for people to read I used last names, and other details that I should filter.
I realized I was depressed when I was working at Datastream. It was the being alone and on the road that I think did it. Being bored towards the end didn’t help either, but I when I read back on the posts I realize I was depressed even when I started working there in training. Of course I wasn’t doing what I signed on to do for the 3 months of training, and that could have been it. I don’t know. it is just weird reading all these old posts. I may decide to go back and fill in some blank spots of time with posts of things I remember.